Song: the shame song
Music & Words: Alexandra (Ahlay) Blakely
Music & Words: Alexandra (Ahlay) Blakely
Lyrics
If I'm gonna fall
and if I'm gonna change;
may it serve the whole --
may it turn a page.
If I'm gonna fail,
if I'm gonna learn,
may it serve the whole --
may it serve the future ones!
I, too, deserve belonging.
I, too, deserve to heal.
I, too, deserve aliveness --
I deserve to court the shadows here.
(2x)
If I'm gonna fall
and if I'm gonna change;
may it serve the whole --
may it turn a page.
If I'm gonna fail,
if I'm gonna learn,
may it serve the whole --
may it serve the future ones!
I, too, deserve belonging.
I, too, deserve to heal.
I, too, deserve aliveness --
I deserve to court the shadows here.
(2x)
Notes: I loved the chance to hear Ahlay share both this song and its origin as a song that "slipped through," almost without effort, in response to hearing someone's deep shame over a Zoom call. Ahlay shares her excitement over her project, WAILS, in which community singing and grief ritual are merged. She talks about "Healing that ripples non-linearly, in a spiral," and says, "I'm channeling the exact medicine that I need for myself." We talk about elders, mentors, wisdom and the tools for remembering that which was meant to be forgotten -- the deep connections that are possible. How "I can't sing" comes from a commodification of voices, while "the inherent birthright of singing is about how it feels in our bodies." Whales, and their wisdom of rising and diving as the nature of things, and the transience of emotions. Brené Brown wrote, "True belonging doesn't require us to change who we are; it requires us to be who we are." Ahlay has a beautiful way of being who she is, and it was an honor to hold this conversation.
Songwriter Info: Alexandra "Ahlay" Blakely (she/her) is a song carrier remembering that which was meant to be forgotten in her lineages: song technology as connective tissues of the communal body. She blends song, body percussion, dance, stillness, breath & silence with the deepest intention to support others in remembering their inherent birthright to singing and rhythm. Her ancient ancestors of Old Europe (Ashkenazi, Scandinavian, Finnish, English, Scottish, Irish) sang while building, creating, birthing, working & being in reciprocity and bring with the Land. She understands song to be fundamental in the expansion of ones internal capacity to participate in the collective shift towards life-affirming conditions. An underlying prayer in her song offerings is that they may contribute to the shared effort to transform white culture into being more connected with our bodies, emotions, Land & the animate world around us. These songs are swirls of spells for cracking open, falling humbly to our knees and cultivating more access to the conversations our souls are aching to have with us about their most intimate longings. They are dedicated to the more than human world, the Waters and our Kin in both the seen and unseen realms. We sing to shame, courage, for breaking cycles of intergenerational trauma and for the preparation of being ready for these times we are living in, all while sending these song-beings in ripples through to the ancient and future ones. The songs sung have come directly through Ahlay. Some of her mentors: Whale, Mycelium, Rue, Lightning, Rain, Oak, Redwood & Rosemary
Sharing Info: Yes -- The song is free to share but Ahlay always welcomes financial and/or networking support if/when folks are so moved.
Links:
Wails: Songs for Grief Fundraiser: https://www.gofundme.com/f/community-singing-album
Bandcamp digital album "SPELLS FROM THE UNKNOWN" https://ahlayblakely.bandcamp.com/album/spells-from-the-unknown
Ahlay's Website/Newsletter https://www.healingattheroots.com
Ahlay's Patreon - new music monthly, 1-3 songs per month: https://www.patreon.com/alexandrablakely
Instagram @alexandra_blakely
Ahlay's YouTube Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCJiuxVf4FhGSkYT4K0zpGyA/videos?view=0&sort=p
Joanna Macy &The Work that Reconnects: https://workthatreconnects.org/spiral/about-joanna/
Dory Midnight : https://dorimidnight.com
Kohenet Priestess Institute : https://kohenet.org
Rabbi Jill Hammer: https://rabbijillhammer.com
Taya Ma: http://taya.ma
Rebekah Erev: https://rebekaherevstudio.com
Nahko Bear: https://www.nahkobear.com
Sobonfu Some: http://www.sobonfu.com
Francis Weller 5 Gates of Grief: https://www.francisweller.net/entering-the-healing-ground.html
Laurence Cole: http://www.laurencecole.com
Leticia Nieto: http://www.cuetzpalin.com/Cuetzpalin/welcome.html
Do whales hold their breath? https://www.whalefacts.org/how-do-whales-breathe/
Earth Practice: https://earthpracticemusic.bandcamp.com/community
Song Learning Time Stamps:
Start time of teaching: 00:05:16
Start time of reprise: 01:25:44
Nuts & Bolts: 12:8, Major (Ionian), unison
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